I had a lot of things on schedule today and of course, I wasn't done digesting the events from the day before. My night bus from Sendai arrived to Sunshine City bus stop at around 6:20AM. I returned to the airbnb to take a shower, received my luggage from delivery service, and hoped to be able to take a nap before I head to my nail appointment scheduled for 2:30PM. I was late by 15 minutes and I had to reschedule my appointment to the following day (opps). So I had nothing to do till the live, I happen to see a Cafe Gram, it was almost 3:00PM (special pancake time), and so I ate pancakes for lunch. The pancakes were soooo fluffy, just like the ones at the their Osaka their when I had it with Anna.
ヽ(´▽｀；)/♪
Initial’L主催２マンライブツアー「THIS IS WAR」
2017年 11月17日 吉祥寺CLUB SEATA
開場 18:00 / 開演 18:30
前売¥4,000 / 当日¥4,500
Cast: Initial'L / jealkb
I had a pretty good ticket (#16) for this live so I was aiming for 2nd~3rd row. jealkb played first and I was stuck on 3rd row for them. I've tried to do their furi to not be awkward but it was way too tiring and their music isn't my thing. They seem to be a fun band though but I'm not a fan. They have furi where fans do circle mosh, it was cute to watch but I definitely do not want to be part of that. At some point, they took out a lot of big stuffed fished and threw it at the us and we have to throw it back to them. And there was a moment when they played rock paper scissors with us. I had NO idea how the rock paper scissors worked in this situation and at first I end up being the only person standing since I didn't know what I was doing and wasn't really paying attention but was just throwing out my hands. I think I "won" the game but then I was confused so I immediately sat down like the people who lost and the girl next to me told me to stand up because I won but the band already thought no one won since they prob didn't catch my final winning hand. So we played another round and this time I knew what was going on but I lost the game after like a few turns. The winner was a girl near the right 3rd row and she won a plastic metal award, LOL! It was so funny because the band wanted to use a metal stick to reach to the girl to hand it to her so it took a ridiculous amount of times and tries since it kept slipping down on the stick. And finally the award got to her, yay! (That was supposed to be for me though but whatever.. I was completely lost on what was happening that moment so I stupidly sat down and only the fans who saw my hand knew I won)
After jealkb was done, a jealkb fan from second row in front of me left so I was able to move up one row to second row for Initial'L(slightly to the left of center spot). It was my first time being in second row and I was super excited to see Initial'L again. Actually, I WAS excited until Yuuki came out wearing the stripped red suit that he wore for the past 2 lives! LOL Honestly saying, even though I never judged and never want to judge Yuuki by looks, I had to judge for this outfit. I'm not sure if the reason was the red suit or I was still hyped from VRZEL events the day before, but I didn't had as much fun as I thought I would, especially when I got one of my dream spots to stand at. I also concluded that it could be I was too close. Yuuki barely looks at the first 2 rows and I prob prefer to have eye contact with band guys while I'm at lives.
Whatever the reason was that affected my feelings for seeing L, I still tried to support them the best that I could. I've done all the furi except for the typical headbang that I've never done for any bands and I've jumped with all my strength. I'm not familiar with all L's furis but their furis are not hard to predict nor hard to follow from others so second row didn't gave me a panic attack from not knowing the furi.
There were a few times Yuuki stepped on the bar and leaned forward while singing. There was a moment when his face was literally near my hand that was up doing furi and a moment when my hands accidentally touched his mic cord. He was so close....!! Near the end of the live, I was way too tired to jump anymore and I had to stop... AND IF I HAD TO STOP AT AN INITIAL'L LIVE, THAT MEANT I REALLY HAD TO STOP AND AT ENERGY LEVEL -100%... I didn't know why but as if my eyes knew... my eyes immediately caught Hiyuu giving me a "put your hands up!" face and motioned for me to jump. Seriously, I swear, I've done everything I needed to the whole time except for those 3 seconds that I used to recharge my energy but yet, that was the only 3 seconds he ever gave me attention. Anyways.. I immediately shot my hands up and started jumping again. Actually, if he wasn't motioning me to jump, I would have rested for a longer time since I was very tired!
I always get the most feels at recent L lives whenever they play Firefly because I really like that song. Today it seemed like most fans are jealkb fans. I really like how Yuuk isn't pushy but he was just positively encouraging non L fans to participate. I really hope L gains more fans because no matter what, they are always my #1 and I hope for the best for them. And it's not that I no longer like L or like L less, I think I just enjoy L's music more outside of lives.. maybe...
After the live, I went to buy some chekis and left for meeting up with two Screw fangirls to have dinner and then headed to Byo's session live together.
┐(・。・┐) ♪
kazu presents『1118GIGS2017-special edition-』
2017年 11月17日 新宿LOFT
開場24:00 / 開演24:45
前売¥5,000 / 当日¥5,500
鋲さんセッションセトリ:
1.holy needle
2.傘
3.覚醒ゼリー
4.静脈サラダ
5.朦朧エピローグ
6.執行猶予三年
The venue was pretty small but we were able to grab a center-row-center spot! Before the live started, I was super nervous because I've been waiting for this day since forever!!! I wanted to be there for Byo and see his first performance after Screw's disbandment. I really missed Byo! I was in luck and Byo's session band was the first to play! The stage was pretty low so it was a bit difficult to see Byo however I still managed to see at least his head *phew*. I was hoping Byo would play even one Screw song but he didn't. Although I did not know any of the songs that he played, I can still see the Byo that I know of in Screw. Byo has not changed at all. The way Byo growls, the way Byo licks his lips, the way Byo glares, the way Byo sings, the way Byo moves, and etc were the same as before. I didn't like his hair today but I love his outfit so much. The fur vest looked so great on him!!! The live was very perfect and it was just awesome to be able to see him. There were MC between some songs and Kazu was mentioning something about Screw's disbandment or something and Byo replied something while laughing. And Kazu was like "lol, why do you sound so happy about it" (Bruh, lol! I forgot what Byo replied with specifically but we were all laughing with Byo's response because he seemed he didn't know how to react to that and ended up laughing.. as if he's happy Screw disbanded. LOLOL. I'm sure that's not the case and whatever he replied with that moment I remembered was just a confused laughing Byo response. I really wish I remembered what he replied with though..)
After Byo's session was over, we decided to get our drinks and just stayed in the back to chill. I thought about going back to my airbnb however it was 2 am and trains stop service from about 0:00~5:00 so I was literally just standing and drinking my drink and chatting with the other two girls. During one of the breaks between the bands, I was just daydreaming on the spot just hoping time would past by faster so I can go back and sleep..... suddenly a group of guys walked past me (in front and in back probably) to go to the drink bar. They were pretty loud and so I glanced over. I saw two short youngster looking guys, 1 tall but big guy in dark color fluffy jacket, and a girl(or girls) who they were talking with. The big fluffy guy was asking the girl if she remembered her and such and such. I didn't think much into it nor looked at their faces since I am always not observant on people who are just passing by.... Suddenly Melli told me, "....'s behind me" and I said I couldn't hear her and had her repeat. She said, "Kazuki's behind me". I was like, "what!????" She said she recognize the voice when he was walking past her since he was talking. I looked at the people in back of her, they were the people who just walked past me and their back/or side was to me when they were at the drink bar. I was like, "WHICH ONE!?" And she said the one with the mask (tall one) and I was like.. "no way...... the taller dude looked so big and CHUBBY (lol). And also when I glanced at them before, that taller guy seemed like a flirt/player talking to whoever I thought was a female friend of his and I never had that impression of Kazuki in me so I couldn't believe it at first (maybe she was just a regular fan whom he recognized and is familiar with). Since then, my eyes couldn't leave the big tall guy hoping to see his face but the lights were dim and loud so it was difficult to confirm with my eyes. The tall guy reached out his hand to reach out/pat his guy friend and I glanced at his hand..... it was that purple stone ring. It was the ring that Kazuki's senpai (Aoi?) gave him. That one-of-a-kind ring. The ring that Kazuki always wear. I can never forget how that ring looks like. That meant THAT person is Kazuki. I do not even need to see his face to confirm he is Kazuki because with that ring, that must be Kazuki. I just kept staring at him because I was really shocked to be able to see him and also he was so close... (yet so far) but I miss him so much and I never thought I'd get to see him at all during this trip. I forgot how long I've been staring and trying to look at his face (but the lighting was so bad that I couldn't see his face really at all). There was nothing else I could do but just glance at him. After a while, Kazuki and his friends decided to go back to the lobby/backstage and they were walking pass in front of me again. Yes, my eyes never left Kazuki since Melli told me that was him. Kazuki's friends went first, and then Kazuki was tailing behind. He gets closer and closer... he was literally right in front of me passing by and my head and eyes turn as he walked past me. Deep inside I wanted to call out to him and wanted to talk to him or just whatever, JUST SOMETHING but I had no reason to. I think Kazuki figured all I was staring at him all along and as he walked past almost completely, I hear clearly just a few inches from my right ear, "おはよう" and I felt someone's hand on my lower back for a brief second or two (like a greeting-pat?/greeting-touch?) I was literally frozen in place for a good 5 seconds before I realized that Kazuki greeted me. I never got to meet Screw nor see them much before they disbanded so anything even just saying hi to Byo or Kazuki can get me destroyed from happiness. For the next 1~2 minutes, all I did was squatted on the floor and sobbed from shock and happiness lol! I really really really misses Kazuki.
After a while, Melli wanted to smoke and people can smoke in the lobby area so we went. Then I found Kazuki, Jin, and his two friends chatting with two fangirls on the right side. Right when I saw Jin, I think I just blurted, "There's Jin too!!!" and Melli quickly used her hands to covered my mouth so we don't get noticed (ahh sorry). The fans left after a while and I really wanted to go talk to Kazuki. I really want to say hi but I did not have the guts to do so and I regret not being brave enough. The whole time I just kept glancing at them. I saw Kazuki walked out to the venue and back inside. There was a girl standing at the door between venue and lobby. I don't know if the girl said anything to Kazuki or not but it didn't seem like she did. I saw when Kazuki was walking pass her, he lightly touched either her arm or her waist and said a greeting to her. I don't know if she's a fan or not but her face expressing didn't look interested or something. They were far so I wasn't sure. Damn.... now I have the impression that Kazuki is a huge playboy. Most band guys are like this and whatever but I do like to, and would choose to believe that Kazuki is more mature than that. Anyways, even though the image was destroyed, that doesn't stop me from liking Kazuki a lot still. He was always at the vkei-god level in my heart but I mean he is a human being so yeah. In the end, Kazuki and Jin left and no where to be found. We just chilled. Someone told me Byo was standing at the back stage bar area (right next to the lobby area with no wall, literally right in back of us) but Byo went out to the venue already. I decided to go back out to the venue to find Byo. I found him standing with another band guy waiting for the next session to start. Suddenly a bunch of old Screw fans spotted him and he went over to chat with them. He looked like he had fun talking to them, then another older fan came over and she was almost in tears to be able to talk to him and see him again. I couldn't do anything but stare at his back and wait for a chance. The chance to talk to him never came for me. The next session started and while everyone were watching the musicians on stage performing, I was staring at Byo's back the whole time. I was standing 2 rows in back of him. He was so close but yet so far. After a while, Byo and his friend decided to leave, they walked a u-turn from the left side and walked pass in front of me to get to the lobby to our right. Right when Byo was about to pass me, I was thinking to myself if I should say anything or just not do anything or WHAT!?? I had 3 seconds to decide... When he was right in front of me, my hand held on to his arm and all I said was "Byo!" and he glanced quickly and nodded his head and I let go and he continued walking. Honestly I was a little terrified when he glanced quickly and I know I was very rude, like very very rude but during that moment I really wanted to say something before never seeing him again during this trip (even though just calling out his name was random as fck).
We stayed till the very end because the two other girls wanted to watch the last session and I stayed as well because I had a slight hope of seeing Screw again. But none of the Screw members were to be seen again. I stayed in the lobby area trying to nap while sitting on a step. I was cold, I was tired, I was emotionally drained, but I felt super happy to get to see some Screw members. Once the live ended, we parted ways and headed back to our place. Today was a very long day.
BYO AND KAZUKI TOOK A 2-SHOT TOGETHER!!! I CAN CRY FROM HAPPINESS <3
Happy happy happy day!
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